My Dearest Callie,
Happy 2nd Birthday! Today is your very first of many birthdays in heaven. What an absolute JOY that must be for you to experience your birthday in heaven. What a party you will have today. I'm so thankful you are with Jesus, even though we miss you so much here on earth. I know our earthy separation is temporary and I cannot wait to reunite again soon.
Though I know you are experiencing such JOY, we miss you so much, especially on your birthday. I wish so badly I could have one more day with you. I wish I could hug and kiss you, hold you, and talk with you one last time again. I wonder what new words you would be saying right now. You picked up on words so quickly, so I'm sure you would have had a huge vocabulary by now. I wonder what changes in your personality I would have seen if you were still with us. You were always so independent and had no fear, I'm sure you would be exploring the world around you every time you got a chance. I wonder how beautiful the curls in your hair would look like. I wonder how long your hair would be now. I miss fixing it everyday in order to get it out of your face as it grew so much the last couple of months. I wonder what new toys you would be into right now. You loved Peppa Pig the last month you were wth us especially and I always think of you every time I see it. I wonder what kinds of trouble you and Cooper would get into. You both loved making huge messes together. He loved playing with you so much and I know he misses you. I miss your sweet brother/sister relationship. It was a true joy to watch. I wonder what cute new winter outfits you would be wearing now. And cute winter shoes as this would have been your first winter walking. You would have loved the Christmas Tree and looking at christmas lights with us. I'm sure you would still be a great sleeper and adventurous eater. You made my job as your mom so easy.
You are missed so so much. I'm thankful you don't have to experience the pain of missing us like we do with missing you. There are so many moments when I still think I hear you crying in your room. When I think you are waking up and I need to go get you. When I think I hear your cute voice down the hallway. But I instantly have to remember that you aren't here with us and it hurts so badly. I wish I could have watched you grow up like everyone else gets to do with their daughters. I wish I could have seen your personality blossom over the years to come. But God had a different plan for all our lives than what we ever expected. And as much as that pains me, I am again so thankful you are with Jesus, experiencing the most amazing things anyone could ever experience.
Happy Birthday again my beautiful daughter! You are so so loved by many people. Your daddy and brother especially love you SO much. We miss you every second of everyday. I thank the Lord for allowing me to be your mommy for 18 short months. I so wish it could have been longer, but for now I just want to say we will see you very soon! xoxoxoxo
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